graduation marks the beginning of the next stage of my life. after i got over my pity party of having to put my college days behind me and start life like a real adult, i realized this is a great opportunity to get a fresh start on my weight loss. weight loss is just a part of it though. i want to be fit. i dont want to be some stick figure. i want curves. i want to have muscles so i can not only talk the talk but walk the walk ;) here we go.
finally got the balls to weigh myself today.. dont ask me how but the scale said 169. only a few pounds gained from what i lost? ill take it. i thought it was going to read over 170 for sure. mayhaps the scale is not the enemy i thought it was.
life. i have completely lost track of my weight. at this point, the scale has become shelob to me. i was doing so well and came so far. i feel like i moved two steps forward and have taken three steps backwards. is this going to be how things are for the rest of my life? always telling myself this is the last straw, starting tomorrow im going to change my ways, yadda yadda yadda.
im sick of saying im going to do things tomorrow. im going to do it today god dammit. my parents are celebrating easter at their house today.. roast lamb, beef tenderloin, potatoes, a whole counter full of dessert. i am going to limit myself to one plate of linner(lunch+dinner??) and one dessert. tonight, i will channel my inner shakira to some zumba dancing.
im starting this-again-today.
